El Shadday-Wednesday

My toes got stepped on this morning.

I am doing the Bible Recap reading plan on the Bible app, and I have read ahead. Not on purpose, but some mornings I just get caught up in the word and keep going, and then I have read 3 days ahead and not realized it. Well, here I am reading the first of Exodus. We have met Moses; he’s grown, and God is telling him that he needs to go head-to-head with Pharaoh and demand that he let his people go.

That would be scary for anyone, but Moses “is a poor speaker”; perhaps he stutters or has a lisp. Either way, it is enough to shake his confidence to the point that he tells God that he can’t do what God has asked him to do.

I mean, I get it. He doesn’t feel qualified. He lacks eloquent speech. He lacks confidence. I am all of these things. But he is telling God this. God. The creator of the universe. His Elohim, El Roi, El Shadday, YAHWEH!

And this is where my toes got hurt. In the daily wind-up, the facilitator and writer says that Moses’s fears and insecurities are an attack on God’s character.

Remember when we talked about the creative talents that God gave us?  We all have different talents, and we all use them differently. God gave you these talents and these abilities, and he gave them to you so that you can glorify him with them.

So when we question God about our ability to use WHAT HE GAVE US, we are questioning El Shadday about his sufficiency. His ability to sustain and support us. We are questioning whether he knew what he was doing when he poured that ability into us.

Y’all. I’m gonna have to sit with that today.

I had a friend tell me I needed to do something, and I laughed. I then asked my mom, and she agreed with my friend. So I asked 2 more friends and my husband. And they all agreed with my friend that I should do it. So I added it to my prayer list, and my husband and I pray about it every night. And no, I’m not going to tell you what it is yet because I’m still not accepting it. lol

But what right do I have to question the gift that God gave me? How can I not use it to gloirfy Him? How can I not do what He is calling me to do? If I question him, am I not questioning his very character? Am I not trusting that he would supply me with every need?

My question to you is this, and please comment below because I want to know if your toes hurt too. What gift has God given you that you aren’t using, or are you wrestling with God on how he has asked you to use it? Do you trust him to be sufficient?

I’m off to find some steel-toed shoes. Y’all have a great day with Jesus!